Saturday, June 27, 2009
Second to last
Today I had my second to last treatment. Just one more to go, then I get my port out and then I am done. Just like that, I am pushed out of the nest, I am sent out into the world on my own. Life after cancer. Life after treatment. It is hard to explain the variety of feelings that I feel. I know that people assume that I will just enter back into the mainstream of life. Good for her, she's done with treatment, so she's good, life can get back to normal for her. But normal has changed. Yes, I will go through my days doing the things I have always done. But, for the cancer survivor, the thought of cancer never leaves. It is always there in the back of their mind. It changes you. You may appear to be the same, but you are not. Every day is a gift. Life in the moment is valuable and precious. Never to be taken for granted, never thought of lightly. I think Grandmother Shenk had it right: take time to smell the roses, and don't fret the little things. These are good things to remember.
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I am sure that as you enter in the the "Life after Cancer" you are not the same, who in their right mind would expect you to be. Your thoughts, feelings, actions and values have all changed.
You never know in life what is in store, sometimes I think that is good, and then there are other times that I wish I knew what was coming so that I could plan differently. I like to know where the road goes...
You are a remarkable woman, although we are not close, I admire you from afar and thank God that he blessed my life with you in it.
Enjoy the changes, embrace the fact that you are a strong person and have a wonderful family, from there no one should ask any more.
Here's to a new normal!
I am so excited for you, coming to the end of this road--- and we will continue to pray that every speck of cancer has been eradicated and will never return, in any form!!!!
You look really cute in your own hair! C
man I sure do love you :) But instead of this being pushed out of the nest, I suggest you just jump on out haha Life is indeed precious and ever a sweet reminder that this is not our home! Somehow I'm feeling the need to sing the countdown song ;)
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